Please don't get offended, I am going to be brutally honest:

Have you thought about therapy?

My sweetie is a schizophrenic, a very functioning one and you have such paranoia. I recognize a lot of your symptoms and very low self esteem.

It is at such an extreme level I wonder if someone hasn't mentioned it to you before. Maybe if you have insurance at your work they might pay for it. Sounds like they are somewhat at fault anyways.

I am not judging just trying to help.

sometimes guys get scared about there feelings. We too feel shame and isolation and vulnerability. Just keep that in mind before you say he doesnt care,  cause he might.

If you dont know how he feels, how can you be sure he doesnt love you?

sometimes we have to learn to just be proud of ourselves. others encourgement & compliments do help, but ya kno...you dont need it. you just have to kno within yourself that you did good. reward yourself once in awhile for it too. you sound like good person, dont let the negativity bring you down. curious, do you praise your daughter for accomplishments she makes? thats good if you do. i wish my mother would have done that for me too, which is why i think i too feel so unacknowleged at times.

however, life is what you make it. make the best of it :) show your daughter how you want her too to see the world. have you ever heard the saying a child mother is God?

-peyton.<3

Are these people that are mean to you worth it?

My man is a schizophrenic. It used to scare the crap out of me until I noticed he is not so different that anybody else. You can not tell really. He does have his "Moments" but we function quite well. He hates it when I tell anyone that he has this illness. Good thing everyone is anonymous.

My man saves me on a daily basis. We have both been through some hell. I hope you never do anything stupid to yourself. The devil is a liar, he wants you to feel this way. I am just trying to figure out why you do. I have lived possibly the worst human existence there ever was and I am still here. I believe in God but there was a time when I was very angry at him. That is my shame. I never will feel like that again.

I feel all people's pain.

_{thats what I was thinking about the koran. But I like to think of it this way. The koran was written by one man...so all the validity is based on one man, whereas the bible is written by 40 different authors. I would believe what 40 different people were saying compared to what one man was saying...especially if it conflicted with the majority.}

_{Now thats not good advice in all cases lol. But in this case there isn't much to go off of.}

Well...I'm a muslim so I believe that Jesus is simply a messenger and nothing else...but I guess everyone had their beliefs.

I don't criticize people for what they believe in or who they pray too...but i also don't want people to criticize(sp) me.

Some of my friends are actually christians and honestly i don't understand why people fight over religion. It's just a state of mind. How I see it, everyone prays to God...One God...different names but one God. I definately don't believe in this whole division and stuff..

I don't know if i understood what you were saying 100% but i tried. Comment me and tell me your views also!

I think for us truth is ultimately what we choose to believe.  Whether it be Islam, Christianity, evolution, atheism...whatever you truly believe in makes it your truth.  Whether that truth is right, who knows?  I say just follow your instincts and your heart, what seems more right?